Dukan Attack Phase – Day 2

So this is kinda day 3… I pseudo started on Monday and thus there was a drop in weight between those days.

Weigh-in 283, sugar 111

I’m cooking chicken breast in the slow cooker right now and I have a steak for later.

Breakfast: omelet and chicken sausage lunch: steak dinner: chicken slow cooker with chili spices snack: steamed shrimp, tilapia, smoked oysters, sugar free jello, oat bran, diet coke

I felt so hungry today and then I went crazy on seafood. Now I’m in bed in a protein coma. I’m actually one half feeling great and the other half soooo exhausted. So I guess that sugar and carb addiction is showing through now.

I promised myself I wouldn’t cook tomorrow. I’ve got tons of leftovers. They got to go before I open or cook anything else. Famous last words probably. I got some seltzer water from the grocery… hoping that keeps me full. 

Oh and in other news… My dog has gone psycho from all the food smells. 

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Dukan Attack Phase – Day 1

It doesn’t help that I have a stressful job but it does help in stopping me from grazing all day. πŸ™‚

Morning weigh in 285, sugar 134.

Breakfast: Omelette; fat-free chicken sausage
Lunch: Pork loin from the slow cooker; chicken from the slow cooker
Dinner: Chicken, Shrimp, Pork, cream cheese
Snacks: Turkey, Ham, cream cheese, hard boiled egg

No joke I was feeling disgustingly stuffed all day. Even as I was stressed I just couldn’t eat.

Watched a movie with my roommate in the evening and then decided to clean out our tupperware cabinet. lol I don’t know why I was nesting but it felt good to get it done.

Big start – Dukan Diet: Attack Phase

So according to the Dukan calculator my ideal weight is 182 pounds. I am currently 287 pounds. They say if I follow the program that it will take 474 days on the cruise phase to lose the weight. I will give myself all the time I need to lose it without stressing that it will take forever. Day by day just making better choices.

God this diet feels daunting now!

68 Pure Proteins: Starting on the Attack phase

Lean meat
Beef tenderloin, Filet mignon – Buffalo – Extra-lean ham – Extra-lean Kosher beef hot dogs – Lean center-cut pork chops – Lean slices of roast beef – Pork tenderloin, pork loin roast – Reduced-fat bacon, soy bacon- Steak: flank, sirloin, London broil– Veal chops – Veal scaloppini – Venison
Poultry
Chicken – Chicken liver – Cornish hen – Fat-free turkey and chicken sausages – Low fat deli slices of chicken or turkey – Ostrich steak – Quail – Turkey – Wild duck
Fish
Arctic char – Catfish – Cod – Flounder – Grouper – Haddock – Halibut and smoked halibut – Herring – Mackerel – Mahi Mahi – Monkfish – Orange roughy – Perch – Red snapper – Salmon or mmoked salmon – Sardines, fresh or canned in water – Sea bass – Shark – Sole – Surimi – Swordfish – Tilapia – Trout – Tuna, fresh or canned in water
Shellfish
Clams – Crab – Crawfish, crayfish – Lobster – Mussels – Octopus – Oysters – Scallops – Shrimp – Squid
Vegetarian Proteins
Seitan – Soy foods and veggie burgers – Tempeh – Tofu
Fat-free dairy products
Fat-free cottage cheese, Fat-free cream cheese, Fat-free milk, Fat-free plain Greek style yogurt, Fat-free ricotta, Fat-free sour cream
Eggs
Chicken – Quail – Duck

And Sugar-free gelatin

More foods allowed on the Dukan Diet:

  • SHIRATAKI : Unlimited starting from the Attack phase. The Konjac root from Asia (China and Japan) is satisfying, rich in fiber, stimulates intestinal transit and has virtually no calories. You can also find konjac in other forms, such as a powder or β€˜flour’ and sometimes a gel. You can use any form forΒ Dukan Cooking.
  • GOJI BERRIES : starting from the Attack phase. Limited quantity: Pure Protein days: 1 Tbsp , Proteins and Vegetables days: 2 Tbsps.
  • WHEAT GLUTEN : 4 tbsp / week (all phases)

Reverse Psychology

Seems when I tell myself that I am going on a diet I end up eating and binge eating at that, everything in sight. I feel like when I tell my plans or pour my heart out to my close friends I end up doing the opposite of my plans. I feel like I’m hardwired to fail and to fail spectacularly.

I decided to come back to blogging instead of talking it out with others. I found a Weight Watchers meeting that I want to go to this week. I’m debating to find an OA group but I’m still in enough denial that I don’t want to hear anyone’s sad story. I’m trying to work through that. I know I will hear stories that mirror my own and I’m not prepared psychologically to hear it and not run home or to a fast food place and binge.

I went to the grocery store yesterday and got a ton of food for the Dukan attack phase. I slow cooked a pork loin and I have chicken tenders in the slow cooker now. This week I just want to snack on proteins and follow the attack phase. I enjoyed the Dukan diet when I did it back in 2012. I lost 13 kilos then.

I appreciate constructive and positive feedback. But if I feel comments are to stress me out I will prob delete them. I’m going to blog the journey and hopefully my reverse psychology will work.

Be safe and take care of yourself.

 

New Year Old You

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#NewYearNewMe is such b.s. We have to accept ourselves “as is” first before making plans to improve ourselves. I am full of self doubt, loneliness, critical of myself and others, lazy – too lazy to even take my diabetes meds properly. My only accomplishment last year health wise was dropping my A1C to 6.4. I lost weight but gained it back. Lost again, gained it back. Joined Weight Watchers in November, haven’t been to one meeting yet. I’m the worst at keeping steady and accountable. I infuriate myself with doing this yet I feel helpless to change.

The ex and I have been talking again. I understand more now of where he is coming from and his frustration with me. His version of “tough love” to get me motivated didn’t work. I told him I need support not tough love. I’ve had enough abusive like words from my family to last me a lifetime.

So this year I haven’t made any resolutions. I’m going to live my life day to day and try to break my habits by being conscious of them and my choices everyday. It’s the only solution that I can see. As I approach food or just walking… I need to be present. That’s my gift to myself.

Be well everyone. Never give up.

Through the looking glass but looking harder

I’ve lost track of time and accountability. I was using this blog to get back to me and face myself. I am my own worst enemy. In a world where we expect people to tell us “oh it’s ok” or “tomorrow is another day” and even “you can do this” I find myself wanting the naysayer with a bullhorn going after me saying “remember the last time you tried and failed? You keep fucking this up!” Not that I have some deep rooted s&m punish me thing .. but nothing is working for me. I find myself going up and down. Back and forth and all over the place. It’s maddening! I want to lose the weight on my own but I feel like I sabotage any progress I make. I got down to 279 and I went to ocean city and ate like a fool for 2 days and came back at 282. It’s monday… I’m recommitting to this blog and I’m recommitting to eating well from today on. I am literally killing myself with food. I don’t think that has really sunk in for me. 

In other news, im officially diabetic with a 6.7 a1c and 111 morning blood glucose test. I have high triglycerides and the statin they prescribed me made me sick so no dairy and red meat for a while. Im seeing a nutritionist and hopefully she can steer me in the right direction. If anything has worked for you I’m open to ideas and suggestions. I’m thinking of joining weight watchers or Jenny Craig. I did Nutrisystem last year and lost 40lbs but their food tastes like dog food to me now. My cousin suggested the two day fasting diet where you fast to 500 calories twice a week or month? I can’t remember. Have to look at it later.

Take care guys. 

If you really loved me…

… you would have lost the weight.

Who says that? Someone who loves you but is frustrated beyond belief with you. That’s who.

I’ve taken a month away from blogging because my life is upside down and finally morphing into what I need it to be. I will post more soon I promisever. And I can update you guys on the pills I was taking.