Seems when I tell myself that I am going on a diet I end up eating and binge eating at that, everything in sight. I feel like when I tell my plans or pour my heart out to my close friends I end up doing the opposite of my plans. I feel like I’m hardwired to fail and to fail spectacularly.
I decided to come back to blogging instead of talking it out with others. I found a Weight Watchers meeting that I want to go to this week. I’m debating to find an OA group but I’m still in enough denial that I don’t want to hear anyone’s sad story. I’m trying to work through that. I know I will hear stories that mirror my own and I’m not prepared psychologically to hear it and not run home or to a fast food place and binge.
I went to the grocery store yesterday and got a ton of food for the Dukan attack phase. I slow cooked a pork loin and I have chicken tenders in the slow cooker now. This week I just want to snack on proteins and follow the attack phase. I enjoyed the Dukan diet when I did it back in 2012. I lost 13 kilos then.
I appreciate constructive and positive feedback. But if I feel comments are to stress me out I will prob delete them. I’m going to blog the journey and hopefully my reverse psychology will work.
Be safe and take care of yourself.